It’s crunch time, exams are starting to begin and it’s not the ideal time for me to be spending time putting on makeup. To be honest I can’t be bothered. I just wanna get up and go about with my day.
So I decided that for one week I wouldn’t wear makeup.
As someone who loves a full face and really likes to go all out this challenge scares me a lot.
But seeing as I have so much going on at the moment I don’t really expect it to affect me or get in the way.
Except it did.
For the first day I was in the University library. I noticed a lot of stares as I walked through the corridors, more than what I usually notice. But I just tried to shake it off.
Then it got towards food time and I realised more and more people were looking at me, It started to become uncomfortable but I didn’t wanna let it shake me. These are people I don’t know and they know nothing about me so why am I bothered.
I carried on with my day as normal and got my work done. I then decided to destress at the gym.
Now for me I always wear makeup to the gym. It will be very light makeup but I’ve always felt comfortable with a little bit on. As I go into the function sections where I only ever seem to be the only female in there it’s always a little daunting. I tried to walk in confident and for a while in there I was unphased.
But when I started doing weights I looked in the mirror and saw how bad my skin was. People around me kept on staring and I felt like everyone’s eyes were on me.
The first day was rough, and I expected it to be. Day 2 and 3 were fine it went like a breeze really. But day 4 was one of the worst.
I was in work this day and I’ve only ever not worn makeup to work twice so my makeup face is a normal sight for them to see. But it’s beyond discouraging to have every person you work with come up and ask if you’re ill.
Just because they’re seeing something different. I got referred to as customers as rough and it got me thinking a lot.
I wear makeup because I enjoy it. Yes I have bad skin but there’s bigger problems in the world.
Why does the attention have to be placed on my skin when there isn’t about 70 layers of makeup on it? This shouldn’t happen. This shouldn’t be viewed as a cry for help. Instead see it as me just making a different choice that isn’t for you to assume anything.
After this disastrous day I decided to look myself in the face for the next 3 days and remind myself that not wearing makeup isn’t a massive deal.
I got so caught up in having my skin looking good I overlooked the fact that makeup doesn’t define me. I shouldn’t’ feel scared or anxious when not wearing it.
No one in the world expects me to wake up with perfectly good eyeliner so why am I bothered by the stares.
The days after this were bliss. I stopped noticing people and allowed my skin to have a break.
My skin got a full clean and revamp that week and I actually enjoyed it towards the end. I liked being able to just have a change, but in the future I don’t think I will do it for that long again. Come day 5 I was itching to pick up my makeup brushes and try a new look. But I did enjoy seeing how I feel without wearing makeup all the time.
COULD YOU GO WITHOUT MAKE-UP FOR A WEEK? LET US KNOW IN THE COMMENTS